Painful Wish (Episode 37)
On pastor’s invitation, Nnenna went to his office. She was surprised to meet Stanley there. The atmosphere looked solemn. It was clear that all was not well. She tried to smile for Stanley. He returned it but the fake smile vanished as soon as it came, leaving no trace.
“God please I am not ready for any bad news” Nnenna prayed.
Pastor cleared his throat, indicating that he wanted to start talking. Nnenna quickly looked up.
“Sister Nnenna , I have an important information to give you. This is a trying time for you and Stanley. But if we handle it carefully, whatever becomes the outcome will surely glorify God.
I already have a ministration concerning this matter. But I will allow you to take your decision based on the leading of the Holy Spirit. Did Stanley tell you anything concerning his past relationships?”
“Yes sir. He told me about some girls he dated in the past. I think the name of the last one was Vera. He lost contact with her when she relocated to United States of America. Afterwards, he gave his life to Christ.”
“Nice one. It makes my job easier. Vera contacted Stanley with the news that he had a child for him. Stanley met with the child and was convinced that the child belongs to him. However, he want to continue his relationship with you? That’s your decision to make. According to how God leads you. God has spoken to me concerning you. I will like you to pray and ask him to speak to you.”
“What of the mother of the child? Is she married?”
“No. She is still single but I have already told her about you. She understands that my life needs to move forward,” Stanley quickly explained.
“Does it mean that she doesn’t wish to marry the father of her child? Please answer me sincerely.”
“Hmm! Of course, she would have wished to, if there is a vacancy. I made her to understand that I have moved on.” Stanley assured her.
“Stan, I know that you must have prayed since yesterday. What is God saying to us,” Nnenna asked him.
Instead of answering her, Stanley bowed down his head. When Nnenna saw that tears was flowing from his eyes, she cried too. But hers was loud.
“Nnenna it is okay , pastor pleaded.
Nnenna tried her best to pull herself together.
“Thank you daddy. I’m not totally surprised. God has been showing that we are not meant for each other. I knew that God must have spoken to him too. It’s just that we were blinded by love. At this point I have no choice than to release him. I’m heartbroken but I know that God will comfort me and give me my own Stanley. This particular Stanley is not for me.” Nnenna said in tears.
“Well spoken. Bow down your heads let me pray for you and release you to go” pastor told them.
After the prayers pastor took Nnenna to the parsonage and handed her over to his wife.
For about 15 minutes Nnenna kept weeping.
“Nnenna it’s enough. You have to stop crying now because I want to talk to you,” Mama told her
Nnenna wiped her eyes and looked up.
“All things work together for good to them that love Christ and them that are called according to his purpose. I know that you are in pain . I know how it feels because I have experienced it. The pain is killing. But I was able to overcome. Since I was able to overcome, you will also overcome in Jesus name!”
“Amen!” Nnenna responded in tears.
“This was actually what we discussed the other day. God was actually speaking to you. If you paid heed to him from the onset, you wouldn’t have gotten to this stage.
You will not be having this kind of pain. After having that discussion with you, I prayed seriously for you and God reveal things to me, which I told Pastor too. We joined hands to pray asking God reveal every hidden thing. We are very careful in handling relationship matters. We only give guidance according to the leadership of the Holy Spirit and allow the individuals involved to take the final decision. The reason is that people that are in love hardly listen to people’s advice . I have passed through that stage. If you try to advise them, they could see you as their enemy.”
“Mummy you are right.”
“Though you tried. You were not really carried away. You tried your best to know the will of God and to do it. At this point you have to put yourself together. It’s not going to be easy. What happened have wounded you.
Even when it stops bleeding, the wound will also need to heal. This takes time. One of the things that will help you to heal is another relationship. However I will advise that you should not rush it. Carry me along in whatever you do from this moment. I will advise and pray along with you?”
“I will really appreciate it . Thank you mummy,” Nnenna told her.
“It’s alright. Let me get ready. We are going out”
“Mummy where are we going to,” Nnenna asked.
“We are visiting an eatery.
“What are we going to do? I am not hungry,” Nnenna protested.
” It’s not all about food. The children playground is full of fun. If you watch the children play, you will temporarily forget whatever is bothering you. Something just flashed into my mind. Try your best to avoid Stanley for now. It will help both of you to heal quicker. Avoid his calls . Strictly avoid visiting him. Even if he tells you that he is dying. Men feels the pain of separation more than women. For the fact that both of you did not quarrel, he will keep looking for you till any day he finally decide to reunite with the mother of his child. Maybe their daughter will make it easier for him.”
“I understand mummy. I will try my best,” Nnenna promised.
Stanley tried severally to reach Nnenna but she didn’t take his call. He later sent a message via WhatsApp.
“How are you doing? I have been trying to reach you. I wanted to know if you are fine. Please I am sorry for everything. I never planned this. I am as shocked as you are. We both need healings from this wound. Please let’s make it easier for ourselves. Becoming enemies will make things worse. Let’s meet and talk, please.”
After reading the message, Nnenna replied,
“I am not angry with you; Never! What is needed from me at this time is to show understanding. If I can’t do that, then I am not worthy to be called your friend. We have been friends, we will continue to be friends. But at this point. We need to give ourselves space to heal. Do you know how I feel to know that another woman is taking you from me. I don’t feel good about it. If not because of God I will not easily let you go. In a bid to help myself I have to try to forget about you. It is not going to be easy but I will try. You have to try to do same too. God will help us.
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